A little Rose!

No Longer Using Blog!

2006-09-10T21:13:00.000-07:00

I am no longer going to be posting here! Mom Colleen Email me and I will tell you my myspace address.

Rose

Rose and Willie!

2006-08-03T11:04:00.000-07:00

This is me and my boyfriend Willie Riggs! Hope that things are great with ya and that you are having a great day! May God Richly Bless You in all you Do!

Overwhelmed with being in love and GOD'S Awesomeness!

2006-06-30T02:08:00.000-07:00

I have been examining some things iin my life and can you believe that God is fulfilling promises that He made to me years ago. I never that in my wildest dreams that I would ever be obediant enough for Him to fulfill them. BUT I am watching them unfold before my very eyes. God is so AWESOME! I have never been this content woth my life. I do not see how anything, other than being married to the man of God's choice, could make my life anymore thrilling. I never imagined that I could obtain the life I so desire to have but as I abide in God I see that life unfolding. It ROCKS!
I am falling more and more in love every day of my life. My boyfriend is the greatest. He is becoming more and more my best-friend every day. I LOVE YOU WSRIV! I spend 99% of my time either with my boyfriend, praying for my boyfriend, talking to my boyfriend, texting him, or thinking about him. At the same time focusing on my Father God and learning more every day. I am so thrilled that this awesome man of God has chosen someone that has done the things that I have done and been through the things that I have been through to be the love of his life. We grow closer and closer together every day as we both grow closer to God. At times, as so does he, I feel like I am going to wake up and this is going to be one of those vivid dreams that seems so real you can't stand to think that it isn't. I know that we are in God's will though and that Willie is stuck with me for a long time. Ok, not stuck with me, blessed with me being a part of his life. Even if things turn out horribly at some point I will never ever regret loving him or being with him.
I LOVE YOU WILLIE!!
Things seem to get more and more awesome every day!! THANK YOU FATHER GOD FOR BLESSING MY BEYOND MY IMAGINATION!

Starting to double think this blog!

2006-06-26T05:33:00.000-07:00

I am starting to rethink this blog. I think that I may just stop blogging because I think that my othamotha and my boyfriend are the only ones who read it and my othamotha never leaves me comments anymore. Please tell me, do you read it or not?

Two Things On My Mind:

2006-06-19T06:01:00.000-07:00

1) God's GREAT AWESOMENESS

2) I LOVE WILLIAM S. RIGGS IV

Can't imagine life being any better right now!

Just Stuff!

2006-06-16T11:48:00.000-07:00

I have been busy latley but more and more blessed every day. I am completely sunburned. I went out on my cousins boat and we kinda broke down. It took us 5 minutes to get to the fishing hole and 4 hours to get back with the troller motor that didn't work very well. I look like a lobster in some places.

I have been spending time with Budro. Ok, by the way if you know me well you already know his name but budro's real name is Willie! I am so in love with him. I haven't been this happy in, well I think that I can say never. I couldn't ask for a more awesome guy.

I have to go to work tonight so I am going to go for now. Hope all is well with all who read this.

GOD BLESS YOU ALL!!!

Feeling Loved and More Beautiful!

2006-06-14T06:13:00.000-07:00

I do not plan on finishing my other blog... I have decided to move on and not bother with that issue.

I am feeling more and more loved every day! Budro and I are are officially going steady. I couldn't be more thrilled about that. Last friday he took me to this restraunt in Lake Jackson called Mother Theresa's. It is a true Italian restraunt. The owner came from Italy and she cooks the meals from scratch. She cooks it like she is in her own kitchen. The setting is very romantic. Budro bought me a red rose. He also, told me he loved me as more than a friend. I am so in love that my family is tickled to finally see me so happy. I LOVE YOU budro!!!!

Budro likes to tell me things like, "I have the most beautiful girlfriend in Brazoria County." This makes me feel more and more pretty. God has already changed my view of myself from thinking that I am ugly, no really ugly, to believing that I am the most beautiful creation He ever made. The more beautiful God makes me on the inside the prettier I feel on the outside.

Things are going good. I am tired a lot but that comes with only getting enough sleep to get by. I spend every evening with Budro, except Sundays! I don't get enough sleep on Sundays because of church.

Lord, help me to stay focused on you. Help Budro and I to follow your every will and to never forget that you come first even before each other.

GOD BLESS YOU ALL!

Spilling my guts today!

2006-06-03T12:02:00.000-07:00

Ok, my nephew's first birthday was on Friday and my brother (Alan II) and sister-in-law (Stephania) didn't even throw him a birthday party. My brother hasn't been going to work so therefore they didn't have the money. Well, seeing how it was Alan III's first birthday and every kid should have a first birthday party I called my sister-in-law and asked her if they would let me throw him a birthday party this morning (Saturday June 3) at 10 a.m. and they said yeah. I bought the cake mix and icing and candle and present. I also bought sodas and chips and some olives for my niece (she absolutely loves olives; she likes to put one on the tip of every finger and eat them off her fingers). I called Stephania yesterday to make sure that we were still on for the party and she said yes. Well, my mother called me this morning and said that Alan II, Stephania, my niece (Allissa) and nephew (Alan III) went to Alvin last night to stay the night with Stephania's grandmother. My mother said that Alan III had called her at 11 p.m. last night and said that they had van problems on the way up there but that they were going to drive very slowly back so that they could come to my house for the party. My mother said that I should call and make sure that they were coming and since she was the one that talked to them and knew they were having van problems I asked her to call and make sure they were coming. When my mother called me back she said that Stephania said that Alan III said that the van wouldn't make it back so they weren't going to make it to have the birthday party for Alan II. I usually get off around 7:30 a.m. but this morning I didn't clock out until 8:10 a.m. My mother said that I could go get them, it is an hour drive to Alvin and a hour back and I still had to decorate the cake and vaccum the floor (we (my MeeMaw) has a 105 pound golden retriever that sheds like crazy). Therefore I didn't have time to go get them and come back and do all I had to do before 10 a.m. So, I called Stephania'a grandma's and talked to Stephania. I said that my mother said they weren't coming and she said yeah thats right. Well, I told her that it would have been nice of them to call me and let me know before I spent the $25 on supplies for the party. Then I told her to let me talk to my brother. When she gave Alan III the phone he asked who it was and Stephania said your sister and she's mad. My brother took the phone and said F*** you and hung up on me. I was very upset. First off because my nephew got robbed of his first birthday party. Secondly because, I believe that the only reason they didn't try to make it home was because my brother didn't want to get up. Lastly, because my niece and nephew are suffering and missing out on things because my brother is lazy nad doesn't go to work on a regular basis. After I got hung up on by Alan III I called my mother back and ask her if she would go get them. She used the excuse that they wouldn't all fit in her car. I reminded her that her, me, Stephania, Alan III, and Allissa all rode in her car to go to the Houston Zoo and that if she went and got them that it would be the same number of people in her car. Then, she tried to use the excuse that there would be no room for my dad and that it was a waste of gas to drop of my brothers family off at my house and then go back to Brazoria to get my dad. So, I told her that my dad has a truck and she could call him when she got 30 minutes away from my house and my dad could meet her here. She wouldn't go for it (another words she didn't want to go get them). Needless to say, we didn't have a birthday party. I cried and got really mad. I can't decide what makes me madder: that my niece and nephew are missing out on things because me brother isn't responsible or that Alan III and Stephania are raising my niece and nephew in a similar way that my brother and I were raised. You see, Alan III and I had a brother that was really sick his whole life. He passed away from cancer when he was 8 years old. I was 5 and Alan II was 6. Because Derek was sick we did without a lot of things. We were so poor that my mother had to clean the restrooms at the little league field for us to play baseball (yes I played baseball not softball- major tomboy). People would put groceries in the back of my dad's truck during the games because we just simply didn't have the money to eat and they wanted to make sure that my brother and I ate. We lived on a farm so most of the time, like every day actually we at meat from the animals we raised. We would butcher them so that we could eat. Do you know what it is like to eat fried pork chops every meal for 2 years( I don't eat pork chops very often now)? Anyway, things got better financially but Alan II and I still did without a lot of stuff while my parents spent what little money we had on cigerettes, drinks, and other things that they chose to do. We hardly ever got new clothes for school and when we did they were usually given to use. While in school we were on reduced luches and most of our Christmas presents came from Toys for Tots (not that there is anyhting wrong with that but if my parents had spent there money wiser we wouldn't have ahd to do that) Anyway, I said all that because my niece and nephew are suffering like Alan II and I did for some of the same reasons that we suffered. My brother and I made a pact with each other at some point in our lives that we would never raise our kids like my parents did, yet he is doing things exactly the way my parents did. Don't get me wrong, my parents did the best they could but they made some very poor decisions. I hate to see my niece and nephew do without because my brother makes some dumb decisions. I do not like the fact that there are times that my nephew does't have formula and that Alan II and Allissa have been wihtout diapers for days because Alan III and Stephania don't have any money. I can't do much because I can't make Alan III and Stephania make smarter decisions but I often help out by buying things that Allissa and Alan III need. I know that Alan II and Stephania are adults but consider this; Alan II was 22 and Stephania was 16 when they got married. They only knew each other for 3 months before they got married and they were married for only 3 months when Stephania got pregnant with Allissa. So after 6 months of knowing each other they were married and had a baby on the way.
Will finish in the morning time to go to bed!

Typing What I am Thinking!

2006-05-31T05:35:00.000-07:00

OK, it is 7:30 a.m. I just got home from work and I have a lot on my mind.

Number 1: People say that I talk to much; Do I? I think that a lot of times I talk so that I don't sit and think about things that would possibly get me down. I also think that it isn't that I talk to much I just talk to loud. Everyone at work hears me talking because it is so quiet in Wal-Mart in the middle of the night. Ok- my conclusion: sometimes I do talk to much but most of the time it is jsut too loud! Comments from people I know???? PLEASE!

Number 2: Please Don't be offended by this "BUDRO"! Budro's family doesn't like me. They never have. What upsets me is that they don't even know me. They only know what they have heard... which isn't good stuff. They haven't seen me since 2003 and I love to say that I have changed an anormous amout since then. For the better of course. If or when Budro decides to tell them that we are hanging out again they are not going to be very nice about it. My problem is, is that I don't want Budro to go through that again. He already has once and it wasn't worth it to him. If someones family doesn't like you does that possibly mean that I could be hearing God wrong and we are not meant for each other? I have been told by Christians that if God intends for you to be with someone that the family will be sure of it too. But what if they don't really listen to God all the time? Does that mean that Budro and I aren't meatn for each other? I am not saying that they aren't Christians but as Christians we sometimes miss what God is telling us. Conclusion: I know in my heart of hearts that Budro was made for me but I really don't want Budro, who is so family oriented, to be distanced from his family because of me. But then I think that, that is a choice that is up to Budro not me. I Love Budro and I don't want to see him hurting in any way!

Ok, that is it for now. Please feel free to leave comments.

Not feeling Christian-like right now!

2006-05-30T05:55:00.000-07:00

Ok, last night at work I busted my butt while it seems that everyone else goofed off! I threw the frieght for isle 6, threw sodas, and water, and then cleared of the floor of all the back stock frieght. When I came out of the back room the other grocery associates were still zoning our shelves. I was a little mad and then this jerk started talking mad mess about not being done. So, being mad I made the comment that some of us work harder than others and this jerk said "just keep telling yourself that". Uhhhhhhhhhhh! I work twice as hard as that jerk. All he does all night is throw and zone one isle. He and I have a little history behind us so that didn't help matters any. I then told him to keep his pie hole shut or I would hit him. Ok, not the Christlike thing to do but I was mad. Then he tonted me saying, "hit me, touch me, hit me, touch me". Can you believe that? What I can't believe is that I got so mad that I threw a can of beans at him. THANK GOD it hit the floor and not him. I feel so bad that I got that mad. I haven't been that mad in a very long time. I was angry.... PO'ed if you will. I am not feeling much like a Christian right now. That stinks! I am very tired and my shoulder blades are very tense. Thank God "Budro" rubbed ym shoulders last night. Oh, if you don't know who budro is: he is a guy that I have been hanging with. "Budro" is not his real name of course. Oh, by the way: In my last blog I said that Budro and I dated in 2002 it was actually in 2003. My bad.
Ok, other than that I am ok. I can't wait for God to reveal some very important things to "Budro"! Ok, the Golden Girls are on now so I gotta jet.

Wow! It's Really been too long!

2006-05-25T22:51:00.000-07:00

Ok! So my bad that it has been so long since I posted anything on here. This is how things have been for me: I am still working at Wal-Mart, over nights in the grocery depeartment. I have started seeing someone that I have dated before. For the sake of privacy I'll call him Budro! Budro and I use to date back in 2002! Seems like forever ago yet seems like yesterday! A lot of things about me have changed since then. I believe in my heart of hearts that budro and I are ment to be together. I believe that God created the two of us for one another and that one day I will be his wife. He is not sure yet. I can deal with that. I just hope that it doesn't take forever for that to be revealed to him. I am really excited that budro and I have been spending time together. See, budro and I can share anything with each other. I do mean ANYTHING! We have known each other since I was 11 or 12 and I am now 23. That's a long time to know someone. We already know so much about each other but still there is a lot to learn. I enjoy every minute I spend with him. I have been going to church regularly again! Oh, I stopped going to church every Sunday and wed. for a while because I was just so tired from working graveyards. But when I do that I get into these slumps that I know the only way to get out of them is to go back to church, so thats what I did. Things are great! God is more real to me every day of my life. I can't believe that it has taken me 23 years to realize my importants to God! I am a child of Christ! I am beautiful to, loved by, and wanted by the most awesome man- GOD! I really desire to serve Him in every way that He gave me! I am so thrilled to be walking hand in hand with my "DADDY"!

It's Been A While But I am more Blessed than Ever!

2005-11-04T14:41:00.000-08:00

I have been dedicating myself to our ladies banquet at church for the last two months. It is now over and I am blessed beyond understanding. Last Friday October 28th I had a wreck and flipped my car. I am truely blessed to be alive. The banquet was a blast, even though I was very stiff. Things have been well. I a making some changes in my life, they wont happen over night but with God's help they will happen. I will share more later. It's time to go to bed. Gotta work tonight.

Still Kicking!

2005-09-08T10:23:00.000-07:00

It has been a long time since I typed anything on here so I figured that it was time to write. I have been busy working and helping others out with things that they need. I figure that I am blessed enough I should bless someone else. I have also been busy making plans and things for a table that I am hosting at First Assembly of God, Brazoria's Ladies Day Banquet and Theatre. Now this month I still have all of that plus drama practice because I am in the Theatre drama for the event as well. It wouldn't all be so hard but I work graveyards so I should be sleeping in the daytime.

The name of the drama is "The Witness". I am playing Karla Faye Tucker who killed two people in 1983 with a pickaxe. They sentenced her to execution. She appealed her sentence for 13 years. During those 13 years she became a Christian and married the assistant chaplain to the president. She lost her appeals after 13 years. She was the first woman executed until President Bush and the first woman executed in years. Anyway, that is my part, I tell her story and then I go to heaven.

As a hostess I am responsible for everything that goes on my table plus getting people to sit at it. I have my dishes, they have flowers on them that are pink with a blue trimming, I have my glasses, silverware, salt and pepper (already in a holder), and candle holders that I am going to use to decorate it. My center peice is going to be 40 or so Yellow Roses with red tips. I am going to put a candle and candle holder in the center of the roses therefore you wont be able to see the candle and holder. I am going to cut the roses so that they cover the candle holder and make a mushroom shape. You will see the glow of the candle through the rose pettles. Then I am going to bunch material entertwined with real Ivy and blue ribbon around the vase so that you wont be able to see the vase. Then I am going to sprinkle some rose pettles on the table. I will also have 6 candle holders around the table. i am so excited. The only thing that worried me is that I get great creative ideas but sometimes I have trouble putting it together. God will provide.

Anyway, I am still working graveyards at Wal-Mart. I ahven't spent much time with anyone except the two people I have been helping out. Needless to say, when I do not spend time with my friends and fellow believers I get into an emotional slump. So, I am working my way out of one right now.

TO MY FRIENDS THAT READ THIS:
I haven't forgotten about you. I think of you often. I miss and love all of you.

Hope you are all well and MAY GOD RICHLY BLESS ALL!

Not doing well!

2005-08-09T11:50:00.000-07:00

I haven't been doing the things that I need to be doing so therefore I have been feeling a little down. Problem there is that I fight being depressed. I have been doing a lot of thinking and I know that the reason I God hasn't given me "the one" yet is because I haven't solely surrendered to Him. That knowledge stinks because now I have to change. Well. I will write more on this subject later. I do not wish to have my words read over my shoulders.

Been A While!

2005-07-15T15:22:00.000-07:00

Hey guys and gals! It has been a while since I last posted. I have been very busy. Well, not busy just sleepy. I had all my hair cut off yesterday. It is right below my ear. It is cute but I am not use to it yet. All has been well. I miss my friends and I hope that you are not mad that I have been neglecting you. Sorry!

Been Awhile!

2005-06-18T07:54:00.000-07:00

I have a new born nephew now! He was 6 lbs. 15 oz. He is adorable. I have been working really hard and been really tired lately. All is well as can be. I have been an aunt for 17 months now and it has made me realize that the relationships that I have with my aunts is strange. I remember when I was a kid I was close to my Aunt Delane but she passed away when I was in 5th grade. I loved my Aunt Delane so much that I was afraid to ask her for anything. I was even scared to ask her to stay the night because I was afraid she would say no and break my heart. Anyway, the point is, I learned a life lesson when she died. I do not remember ever telling her that I love her. The lesson that I learned was that if I care about someone I make it a point to let them know: you never know if you will ever see that person again. Sometimes things just happen. Anyway, I have two aunts that live in this area and I am not close to either one of them. I have an aunt in Washington State and I am closer to her than the two in this area, of course I am only as close to her as I can be, being so far away. Anyway, I hope that as my niece and nephew grow up that we only get closer and stay close. I hope that when they are teenagers and then adults that we are friends and that I am the aunt that they can and will come to if they need something that they can't or wont ask their parents for.

Old Boyfriend!

2005-06-08T05:32:00.000-07:00

Ok, this guy that I use to date named Richard, emailed me the other day wanting to know why I had quit calling him. well, the last time I had talked to him he had moved in with his girlfriend. The crazy thing about that is that right before he moved in with her he and I were talking about getting back together. I really love this guy thats why this is so hard. Anyway, after I got the email I decided that the reason he had emailed me was because he had broken up with his g/f. So, I call him sure enough he is single. We didn't talk the whole time the two of them were together and now he is sinlge and calling me. What am I suppose to think?

What's Up With Me!

2005-05-31T05:43:00.000-07:00

I found out the other day that a really good friend of mine is getting married. I am happy for her but it makes me sick. I am older than her and I should be getting married first. Anyway, I just dont get why it is so hard for me to find a good christian man.

I found out at work that I am being looked at to become the department manager of paper goods. The current department manager is leaving in april. Yes that its 8 months away but I am going to try and become the DM and that means that I ahve to bust my behind to prove I can do it. I work hard anyway but paper goods gets a lot of product every night. Needless to say I am very tired this morning. I stocked 12 pallets by myself last night.

Things are good. I had a stomach bug for a couple of days but I am fine now.

My nephew is due any day now! His name is Alan Sandford Rea III

Friends!

2005-05-25T05:15:00.000-07:00

God has blessed me with many of friends but today I am not feeling that I have been a good friend. I feel that I haven't been there for the ones I care about the most. See, I eork graveyards now so its hard but even before that I haven't been the type of friend that I should have been. It seems that for a while I'll hang out with this group of friends and then this group and this group and that group and when I switch groups I don't hang out with the others. Is there a way to balance groups of friends when one group isn't into the same things as another? Sorry to all of you whom I ahve hurt because I haven't been there when you needed me the most.

Father, help me to be the person you designed me to be. Help me to be there for the ones you have put in my life. I Love You!

Letting Go!

2005-05-23T05:17:00.000-07:00

I am stressing myself out because I am 22 years old and single. Most people that I know my age have kids already or at least have a man. I know that I am young and that if I wait I will be glad that I did. I have very high standards. Problem is, is that I don't live up to those standards myself. Until I do, how can I expect to find the one for me. I have been in love twice in my life and been heart broken both times. One of which I just allowed myself to admit. This is the way I think: My name is Rose Rea and no one, NO ONE, will break my heart. To admit that this guy did is a big step. I have a lot of things that I need to let go of. My past hurts are a big one. I have come a long ways but I still have some more issues to let go of. I have to remember that people will let me down but God wont. Do you remember what it is like to think that you aren't good enough for someone? I need to think more highly of myself. Last night at work I was told that I am ugly, then a couple hours later a guy told me that I was "fine". I am not sure what I think about my outside looks but I don't think that I look "fine". I wish I could see myself like God sees me.
Father, help me to see myself from your eyes. I am your child and you deserve to be praised for making me the way I am, but I am not happy with me right now. Please help me!

A guy at work!

2005-05-22T08:00:00.000-07:00

There is this guy at work named Robert and the two of us like each other. If you know me you know I talk a lot... this guy is really quiet. Anyway- we've been getting to know each other and I like what I know so far. He is a youth leader at his church, he is a christian, he has a job, he graduated high school... sounds good, right? Anyway, Things are going good. I really miss my closest friend, Cassie. She has been busy and I haven't seen her in a long time. Cas, I love you and I miss you!

God is the Lover of my soul!

2005-05-17T05:34:00.000-07:00

OK, well nothing new is going on. I went to cell group last night which is a in home Bible Study that we have in our church! It was my first time at this particular one. I had a great time. The message was awesome. God left us here to take care of His Bride (the Church)!
I have decided to look into going back to college! I want to be a juvenile probation officer. All my life I thought that God wanted me to be a School teacher, but now I feel that I have been ment to be a po this whole time. Crazy stuff. Anyway, that is ist for today

Feeling Better!

2005-05-16T07:57:00.000-07:00

I went to church yesterday and boy am I glad I did. I am feeling much better. I felt God telling me to lean on Him and to focus on Him more. I have chosen to obey this and as a result I feel great. Anyway- things are good. I still work for Wal-Mart, live in Richwood, and I have a car now! I went almost 2 years without a car what a blessing to have one. I got it in March... I love it! God is so good. "For You are good and I will sing." I Love God. He is the best possible husband anyone could ask for. Ok, well I just got off work and it is 8 in the mornin' so I am gonna go watch my second favorite show: The Golden Girls!!!

Feeling Upset!

2005-05-15T06:48:00.000-07:00

Today I am feeling upset because I haven't been to church in almost 2 months. I can't believe that I am doign it again (skipping). I had my heart broken about 2 and 1/2 months ago... of course by a guy... and I have spiraled into this now uncontrolable depression. I saw it coming and did nothing to stop it. I do not like to bother people with my 22 year old petty issues so I try to handle them myself and I get all down and out. I have created this site to give me a place to vent!!